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“I’m not a crybaby, i’m THE crybaby”
Yesterday did not go good in the end. Ended up having a panic attack, amazing! So fun to be on the verge of choking by your own words whilst trying to eat panda express! Then my brother decided the best thing to do was to ramble on about how he knows depression and I don’t have it and friends aren’t real and depression is something made up to sell you more and more drugs to keep you sick so the government can make more money. It did not help. At all. Neither did the fact I couldn’t get a single word in. By the end of it I just stopped responding.
Today was better. I finally got my grubby little hands on a Folie Á Deux vinyl! I’m so happy because it’s my favorite album of all time. I would have a threesome with it if I could. So expensive but worth it.
I also got some gummy’s. Strawberry belts to be specific. Taste so good, yum.
Discussed a lot today. Topic: Is heaven actually that good? To me, no. Heaven sounds like actual torture. Let’s say you actually reach past those pearly gates (which I doubt many today will even do), what is there to do then? Nothing? So your saying, we repent and repent and beg for forgiveness and mercy from a “god” that loves us as equals from a pedestal, and we get nothing in the afterlife but some endless vast that has a few other old bones sitting around? It seems Heaven and Hell are just two sides of the same coin. I would rather make a deal to get my life back after killing a hundred men and then myself for eternity than spend even a week in Heaven.
In my opinion reincarnation is way better. Read “I Woke Up Dead At The Mall”, That would be my ideal representation of the afterlife and reincarnation.
apologies for the big ramble, it’s just something i’m passionate about.
coffee today, so happy, i’ll send a picture of it later if i can.
Mourning a body that still walks, wishing to hear a voice that still talks.
XoxO-Antonio
Yesterday did not go good in the end. Ended up having a panic attack, amazing! So fun to be on the verge of choking by your own words whilst trying to eat panda express! Then my brother decided the best thing to do was to ramble on about how he knows depression and I don’t have it and friends aren’t real and depression is something made up to sell you more and more drugs to keep you sick so the government can make more money. It did not help. At all. Neither did the fact I couldn’t get a single word in. By the end of it I just stopped responding.
Today was better. I finally got my grubby little hands on a Folie Á Deux vinyl! I’m so happy because it’s my favorite album of all time. I would have a threesome with it if I could. So expensive but worth it.
I also got some gummy’s. Strawberry belts to be specific. Taste so good, yum.
Discussed a lot today. Topic: Is heaven actually that good? To me, no. Heaven sounds like actual torture. Let’s say you actually reach past those pearly gates (which I doubt many today will even do), what is there to do then? Nothing? So your saying, we repent and repent and beg for forgiveness and mercy from a “god” that loves us as equals from a pedestal, and we get nothing in the afterlife but some endless vast that has a few other old bones sitting around? It seems Heaven and Hell are just two sides of the same coin. I would rather make a deal to get my life back after killing a hundred men and then myself for eternity than spend even a week in Heaven.
In my opinion reincarnation is way better. Read “I Woke Up Dead At The Mall”, That would be my ideal representation of the afterlife and reincarnation.
apologies for the big ramble, it’s just something i’m passionate about.
coffee today, so happy, i’ll send a picture of it later if i can.
Mourning a body that still walks, wishing to hear a voice that still talks.
XoxO-Antonio
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